sighh
Saturday, September 03, 2005
with ♥ 10:36 PM
oh god. sm1 save me...went out 2dae...saw sho many couples. tt horrid feelin back again...sighx...i dun understand...jus wen i realli tot he was The One...jus wen all e sweet times finally started...fate jus decided it was time to interfere...it jus aint fair...whies do sm ppl get 2 be wit e one they love for their whole life? whies do tis hafta happen, wen he was all i eva wanted...? i wan him back in my arms...tts wat im breathing 4... god noes ive tried bt i cant let go...im crazy abt you...im sry 4 needin you...i realli am...i dunno wat 2 do..im torn....i noe what im supposed 2 do....everyone has been sayin n sayin...[n elisa, thanks bt no thanks. i dun nid matchmaking frm u again. smiles.] bt...sighs...i jus cant bring myself to...i wan 2 put up a strong fight..i wun gif up till im realli tired...sighx...or..am i? haish...and my parents r drivin mi nuts. studies. piano. nw they ANNOYIN me wit e issue of guzhen. if i HATE music. its thanks 2 them. and how sweet of my guzhen tch 2 tink so highly of me and wan mi 2 take grade 6 nxt yr. i mean. wow. ive onli played for 2 yrs in pri sch, and tis yr den took up again? oh well. dunno larx. im sho annoyed. pissed off. and either starhub has prob or sth. i msg him sho darn freakin many times he nv receive/reply. last nite same thing happened. grr. sighx. wat he msg i oso nv receive.... arrgh. im goin nutsy. i'd better start forcin myself 2 listen 2 deb they all and my mum. and oh god. can ya believe it. my mum see mi liddat.. she ish thinkin of matchmakin mi wit her best fwen's son. i mean. oh god. im nt suitable 4 him lorx. they are SHO darn rich they live @ orchard tere. antiques evrywhere in their hse. they r jus darn rich. and i mean.. i NV TALK @ HIM b4. he's lyk, NATIONAL rugby player? note e word national. he go US compete de can. lata i accidently bump into him onli he throw mi onto e floor how?> *GASP* or worse, his arm drop out? oh god. im so gonna change my mum's mind. and sighx. i wish ppl can jus stop matchmakin mi. ELISA. i mean YOU. thankie vy much, i noe ish amusin 2 u bt i dun wan matchmakin. okies? hugs. i THINK i noe wat im doing.and i dun wan 2 be wit another again. tt soon.sighx. i jus hope heavens noe wat he's doin. *crosses fingers* wishin everything ish jus a nighmare that'd pass by quickly... i cant imagine him wit another. i realli cant. does he even noe wat im feelin...? does he even care..? "na wu xian de shang tong; yi han... wei she me dang shi mei zhen xi? mei dang ta zou guo.. xin, hao xiang you chong xin puo sui le..."i miss the times we had 2geda. e sweet memories. e times we argued n teased. e times we quarreled. e times we jus sat tere and gazed @ one another. e times we went out. e hugs. e kisses. and...i jus miss you....can you see my silent tears...?=jinghui=
